http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com A woman's private journey Sun, 28 Oct 2007 21:31:18 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en This is my personal blog about my journey into the world of electroconvulsive therapy. I hope it will also chronicle my eventual exit from the world of depression. I've been depressed a long time, am one of those with treatment-resistant depression (meaning the meds don't work, or only work a ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/intro/ I apologize for not keeping up with my blog. My intentions were sincere, but my life exploded. I had the electroconvulsive therapy and did intend to chronicle my daily experiences. But I was just too out of it to be able to come to any coherent thought. It FUCKED ME UP and ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/electroconvulsive-therapy-fucked-up-my-life/ Tomorrow is the big day. The day of promise. The day of hope. Everything rests on tomorrow. I'm filled with hope of tomorrow. Ick. Now the song from Annie is running in my head. Make it go away! I'm not allowed a computer in the hospital, but I can smuggle in my ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/tomorrow/ It's Saturday night and in my healthier life that would have meant having a great date with a good looking man or heading out to some clubs with my friends. But here I sit at my computer, trying my best to not picture what's going to happen on Monday. http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/monday-is-the-day/ I'd love to have a dog but I can't even care for myself some days. How could I care for a dog? Poor me. I try and tell myself my life could be so much worse. I could be living inside an ugly blue burqa, trying to see life through a ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/could-be-worse/ I'm trying so hard to just wait this out and stay calm. I go from terror at the thought of the whole ordeal to excitement that this hell could end. Wouldn't that be a pip? Everyone at work thinks I'm going into rehab. How insane is that? Less stigma to ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/waiting-for-the-light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel/ I never finished telling who I am. I'm so afraid I won't remember me when I'm done with this. I don't like walks on the beach because sand is hard to walk on. But I do like listening to the ocean and smelling its smell. I like playing in the waves. There's ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/me-part-ii/ Who am I, at least before I have the [tag]electroconvulsive therapy[/tag]? I hope I'll be the same person after, but I read things from others who have had it and some of them just aren't the same. I have to keep trusting my doctor and just put my faith in ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/alien-in-atlanta/ Everything you read on the subject of electroconvulsive therapy sounds the same. Are all of the journalists who write about it on autopilot? I even watched some news clips, including 60 Minutes. The same. Just change the names, use a thesaurus to swap a few words, and the article is ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/media-bots/ This is my blog about my journey with [tag]electroconvulsive therapy[/tag]. My name is Ashley. After having suffered from terrible depression for a long time, nothing has worked. The meds, therapy, nothing. So I've decided to try electroconvulsive therapy. I've read a lot of websites, lots of personal stories. I know that [tag]memory loss[/tag] is ... http://www.electroconvulsive-therapy.com/the-beginning/